Just before the verdict was read, the only thing which gave Conrad Murray’s emotions away as he awaited his fate, was his upper chest breathing. You could see the heaving of his chest and his heart no doubt beat double time.
However his facial expression belied the anxiety he was really experiencing. He wore the same mask like facial expression that he wore throughout the trial which I am certain did not further endear him to jurors.
As the word Guilty was read there was a slight movement however the facial expression did not change. He showed no emotion whatsoever.There was no forehead crinkling, no tears, no lip pursing or eye movement. There was nothing. He was void of emotion. But there was profuse sweating in his temple and upper forehead region.
He was also void of emotion as he was remanded into custody. He looked as though he was in a state of shock as he was cuffed and lead away. No doubt this was surreal for him.
When you see someone who shows absolutely no twinge of any emotion whatsoever, it is often a red flag for a suicide watch. The trial has obviously taken a physical toll on Murray as seen by the hollowed out appearance under his eyes and the puffiness in his midface. He may very well have been medicated during the trial as his eyes looked at half mast often and he appeared to be nodding out.
Oftentimes people do this when the information and truth is too much to handle emotionally. Thus it could be safely said that Conrad Murray appears to be the type of person who keeps his emotions in check and does not wear them openly.
But when the medication wears off and the reality sets in, emotions may take a tool on him and he may react self destructively in the form of a suicide attempt.
As he finally realizes all that goes along with his being a convicted felon in killing Michael Jackson, life may be too hard to handle. The public vitriol, the loss of his medical license, and financial troubles may force him into a state of hopelessness.
So being remanded into custody may be saving his life for the time being as he will no doubt be placed on a major suicide watch. But if he is intent on killing himself, his being a physician and knowing what to do to end his life may make suicide watch a futile process.
He appears to love his little child so that may give him some hope and may deter thoughts of his ending his life. If he thinks rationally and maintains his wits he will see that his 4 years may be cut in half and because of the prison overcrowding factor he may even get home confinement, according to TMZ.
Personally I believe that justice was served greatly and that it is a wakeup call to all physicians who put money and greed above the welfare of their patient. I have seen the starstruck physician who caters to the patient and does all that the patient wants . Even if Michael wanted propofol and insisted on it, he needed to have the integrity and ethics to say NO!
And if he said YES, he needed to stay by Michael’s side to make sure Michael was monitored. If Murray had to go to the bathroom, he needed to have a cup or a pail in the room as not to leave Michael alone. And if Michael had a weak system or had drug issues, he especially needed to be by his side to monitor him.
For the Jackson family, it is bittersweet. It is sweet that Justice was served and bitter that Michael is no longer alive. I know exactly how they feel. When my own precious brother was killed at the hands of an incompetent physician who intubated him wrongly so that he became a vegetable and died, it was sweet that we settled the medical malpractice case, but it is a bitter pill for me which I have to swallow for the rest fo my life that my Manny is no longer alive.
Just as Michael Jackson was an extraordinary person, so was my brother, he was funny and provided me with lots of belly laughs (something I have done little of since he was killed). He was warm, upbeat, kindhearted, really cared about people, highly intelligent, honest, and had a great deal of integrity. He was talented and creative and not just my brother, but my best friend. His death at the hands of an incompetent doctor is unbearable.
I am sure that is how the Jackson family feels about Michael. I had a vicarious thrill seeing Conrad Murray be cuffed and lead away. I wish that this would have happened ot the doctor who killed my brother . It didn’t . The cold hearted emotionless doctor who was only a doctor who seven months when he ended my brothers life is now back at the same hospital in New Jersey practicing as a bona fide physician. It galls me that this is the case. So it was a catharsis for me to see a physician get what was due to him. www.drlillianglass.com