The Brilliant Beautiful Bipolar Amy Winehouse Finally At Peace

 

 

When singer Amy Winehouse rose to the to top of  the music scene she was charming and adorable, beautiful and  incredibly talented. She knew how to sell herself with her beehive doo and cat like painted eyes which was inspired from her fascination with the girl groups of the 60’s.

Before she made it big she had a more natural fresh faced look.   A video of her speaking about her favorite artists and her work showed she was arm and pleasant and extremely self confident as you can se/

Year after year as she performed she became more beautiful and more radiant.


When she did her Rehab video, she was at her peak as you can see in the above photo. It is a shame that she did not do the opposite of what the lyrics in the song suggested and “go to rehab” and stay there until she could function properly.

Amy w. She was quoted as saying that she did not like fame or seek it, She said she was a musician.

But she got fame sought her out as you can see by the crowd at the Glastonbury event . The adulation and the public scrutiny was too much to bear. She began to self destruct.

She began drinking and drugging.

Her marriage to husband Blake Civil Felder may have fueled her drug  addiction. Here we see a zoned out Amy and Blake trying to feed her a pill of some sort off of the tip of his tongue.

Amy’s relationship with husband  Blake ended badly in violence  and in a divorce.

She had several bouts in reahab and stated that she was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder. She also stated in the press that she rrefused to take any drugs to treat the condition.

In one very poignant interview she said I am my own worst enemy, The interviewer tried to correct her and said you mean you are your won worst critic. Amy looked at him and said, no I am my own worst enemy.

Amy hanging out with musician Peter Doherty of the group Babyshambles and doing drugs with him proved she was right- that she was indeed her own worst enemy. She admitted to drinking a lot . here was no doubt that she was taking drugs as it was captured on a video on youtube.

From the looks if this photo with the sores on her face  she may very well have been doing meth.She also got extremely thin.

Her face broke out and some of her teeth fell out as a result of the drugs. She smoked and drank in an attempt to medicate herself and to deal with emotional pain she was experiencing.

She ended up in the hospital on several occasions  which may have been drug related. She tried to go out n the road again and was met with boos and hisses in Serbia and other countries when she just stood on state and didn’t sing. her backup singers had to take over.

Whether it was the extreme embarrassment of being booed off a stage, being overwhelmed by performing, not wanting to do it anymore, her heartbreak over Blake, being so severely addicted she couldn’t cope, Amy either did herself in purposely or accidentally.

If Amy would have stopped taking drugs to medicate her  and started to  take  bipolar medication to mediate her , she may be  still be alive.

Her father Mitch was very supportive of her throughout her life and throughout her career, It is ironic that his daughter died the day he was to make his singing debut in NYC. As soon as he found out, he rushed home.

My heart goes out to Amy’s dad and mom and to the rest of her family. Her short life inspired so many with her  music.  It also  serves as a huge lesson to young people that drugs can kill. RIP Amy!

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38 Responses

  1. Ya know,It’s odd but I spent this entire week watching Amy’s videos and amazed at what a talent she had,a style all her own till the drugs (assuming) took her life over,I thought just the other day about how great she really is/was.little did I know that when I checked in to Youtube today she’d be gone forever!
    What a wasted talent if I ever saw one!
    She was very unique!
    I was an addict and have been sober for 6 yrs now,7 yrs in April!
    I wish she’d had that chance to see how good life really can be without the drugs,I never thought I’d accomplish it let alone try! I get high now not being high! If Only everyone could experience it,Not everybody is so lucky!
    I’m so sorry for Amy!

  2. Wow. I didn’t even know about her death until reading the last few sentences of your article. Her song Rehab did not inspire me with hope for her future. She was very firmly in the clutches of the drug and alcohol demons. I just hope that this was accidental and not suicide.

    She would have been an amazing artist at 40;style, beauty,wisdom,and soul.
    may God bless her soul and comfort her loved ones.

  3. Mental illness is a life of hell. I’m only alive because I am way too uptight to do hard drugs. RIP Amy. You are loved.

  4. This is so, so sad. I remember watching her perform on tv and two thoughts kept going through my head – one, she is incredibly talented and could become one of the all-time greats, and second, she seems so vulnerable and in need of protection. When I read about her problems with alcohol and drugs (I didn’t know she was bipolar) I was rooting for her, hoping she could overcome her demons. Sadly, she couldn’t. RIP Amy.

  5. I’ve been clean and sober for 6 years. I’m also the same age as Amy. I was a fan of her music and I empathized with what she went through. I think it’s really unfair that I have the strength to overcome my addictions while she didn’t. I’m also angry at her not being stronger and for being so selfish as to not overcome her addictions and wasting her beautiful voice.
    RIP, Amy. But I’m still mad at you right now.

    • Gr888 Post! Brutally Honest yet Respectful!
      Admirable!

  6. I was not a fan of her music, although I recognize her talent. My first thought when I read the news was: Lucky girl, now you won’t suffer anymore. Being bipolar really sucks.

  7. She was amazing- now in the 27-year-old club of the best talents. that ever lived.

    I wish she could have been treated with a novel approach to drug addiction- there are so many ways to treat the dopamine-amygdala addiction she apparently had- why we insist on refusing to feed the addiction of these neurologically-addicted people is beyond me. There are many many treatment options out there- but they violate our puritanical sensibilities.

    NOT providing neurologically addicted pleasure-seeking people with pleasure-stimulating drugs (in survival combindations and quantities) is archaic and we will look back- 50 years from now- and shake our heads at the needlessly lost of these souls.

    sooooooooooo saddddddddddddd

  8. She was so TALENTED! What a shame to have lost someone as amazing as she was. She truly had such a gift, such a unique style and voice.

    She will be missed.

  9. “I am my own worst enemy”, she knew who the enemy was. Yes I hope this does open the eyes of young people.

    “I seek strength, not to be greater than my fellow humans, but to fight my greatest enemy, myself.”
    So my Sobriety can SOAR.
    Is on a coin I got 9 years ago

  10. Absolutely tragic. It’s always hard to watch a talent like Winehouse’s life go out so young. My condolensces to her parents, family, loved ones, friends and fans. So very sad. The paps were snapping her pics and she was unhappy with being in the spotlight. Her mental illness,drug abuse, and toxic marriage didn’t contribute. Though it’s a moot point, I hope and pray this is a wake up call for others heading down this path.

    R.I.P. Amy Winehouse. I hope you are finally at peace

  11. Russell Brand’s Eulogy is very moving:

    When you love someone who suffers from the disease of addiction you await the phone call. There will be a phone call. The sincere hope is that the call will be from the addict themselves, telling you they’ve had enough, that they’re ready to stop, ready to try something new. Of course though, you fear the other call, the sad nocturnal chime from a friend or relative telling you it’s too late, she’s gone.

    Frustratingly it’s not a call you can ever make it must be received. It is impossible to intervene.

    I’ve known Amy Winehouse for years. When I first met her around Camden she was just some twit in a pink satin jacket shuffling round bars with mutual friends, most of whom were in cool Indie bands or peripheral Camden figures Withnail-ing their way through life on impotent charisma. Carl Barrat told me that “Winehouse” (which I usually called her and got a kick out of cos it’s kind of funny to call a girl by her surname) was a jazz singer, which struck me as a bizarrely anomalous in that crowd. To me with my limited musical knowledge this information placed Amy beyond an invisible boundary of relevance; “Jazz singer? She must be some kind of eccentric” I thought. I chatted to her anyway though, she was after all, a girl, and she was sweet and peculiar but most of all vulnerable.

    I was myself at that time barely out of rehab and was thirstily seeking less complicated women so I barely reflected on the now glaringly obvious fact that Winehouse and I shared an affliction, the disease of addiction. All addicts, regardless of the substance or their social status share a consistent and obvious symptom; they’re not quite present when you talk to them. They communicate to you through a barely discernible but un-ignorable veil. Whether a homeless smack head troubling you for 50p for a cup of tea or a coked-up, pinstriped exec foaming off about his “speedboat” there is a toxic aura that prevents connection. They have about them the air of elsewhere, that they’re looking through you to somewhere else they’d rather be. And of course they are. The priority of any addict is to anaesthetise the pain of living to ease the passage of the day with some purchased relief.

    From time to time I’d bump into Amy she had good banter so we could chat a bit and have a laugh, she was “a character” but that world was riddled with half cut, doped up chancers, I was one of them, even in early recovery I was kept afloat only by clinging to the bodies of strangers so Winehouse, but for her gentle quirks didn’t especially register.

    Then she became massively famous and I was pleased to see her acknowledged but mostly baffled because I’d not experienced her work and this not being the 1950’s I wondered how a “jazz singer” had achieved such cultural prominence. I wasn’t curious enough to do anything so extreme as listen to her music or go to one of her gigs, I was becoming famous myself at the time and that was an all consuming experience. It was only by chance that I attended a Paul Weller gig at the Roundhouse that I ever saw her live.

    I arrived late and as I made my way to the audience through the plastic smiles and plastic cups I heard the rolling, wondrous resonance of a female vocal. Entering the space I saw Amy on stage with Weller and his band; and then the awe. The awe that envelops when witnessing a genius. From her oddly dainty presence that voice, a voice that seemed not to come from her but from somewhere beyond even Billie and Ella, from the font of all greatness. A voice that was filled with such power and pain that it was at once entirely human yet laced with the divine. My ears, my mouth, my heart and mind all instantly opened. Winehouse. Winehouse? Winehouse! That twerp, all eyeliner and lager dithering up Chalk Farm Road under a back-combed barnet, the lips that I’d only seen clenching a fishwife fag and dribbling curses now a portal for this holy sound. So now I knew. She wasn’t just some hapless wannabe, yet another pissed up nit who was never gonna make it, nor was she even a ten-a-penny-chanteuse enjoying her fifteen minutes. She was a fucking genius.

    Shallow fool that I am I now regarded her in a different light, the light that blazed down from heaven when she sang. That lit her up now and a new phase in our friendship began. She came on a few of my TV and radio shows, I still saw her about but now attended to her with a little more interest. Publicly though, Amy increasingly became defined by her addiction. Our media though is more interested in tragedy than talent, so the ink began to defect from praising her gift to chronicling her downfall. The destructive personal relationships, the blood soaked ballet slippers, the aborted shows, that youtube madness with the baby mice. In the public perception this ephemeral tittle-tattle replaced her timeless talent. This and her manner in our occasional meetings brought home to me the severity of her condition. Addiction is a serious disease; it will end with jail, mental institutions or death. I was 27 years old when through the friendship and help of Chip Somers of the treatment centre, Focus12 I found recovery, through Focus I was introduced to support fellowships for alcoholics and drug addicts which are very easy to find and open to anybody with a desire to stop drinking and without which I would not be alive.

    Now Amy Winehouse is dead, like many others whose unnecessary deaths have been retrospectively romanticised, at 27 years old. Whether this tragedy was preventable or not is now irrelevant. It is not preventable today. We have lost a beautiful and talented woman to this disease. Not all addicts have Amy’s incredible talent. Or Kurt’s or Jimi’s or Janis’s, some people just get the affliction. All we can do is adapt the way we view this condition, not as a crime or a romantic affectation but as a disease that will kill. We need to review the way society treats addicts, not as criminals but as sick people in need of care. We need to look at the way our government funds rehabilitation. It is cheaper to rehabilitate an addict than to send them to prison, so criminalisation doesn’t even make economic sense. Not all of us know someone with the incredible talent that Amy had but we all know drunks and junkies and they all need help and the help is out there. All they have to do is pick up the phone and make the call. Or not. Either way, there will be a phone call.

    ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** *****

  12. Standing Ovation…You are so right!

  13. She was heroin and meth user, talented, troubled, and now dead..just like my own brother at the same age of 27…their lives were the same..my tears have not stopped for her..like him..it is a shame to see this happen and hard to forget. I hope her family can find peace.

  14. Absolutely loved Amy Winehouse, this post was really nice to read, wish you would have taken it a bit more seriously and proofread the entire thing though, it’s distracting otherwise good job, and how sad I always wondered what her next songs would be like. I think she was beautiful. RIP.

  15. Dr Lillian Glass
    Amy was out of drugs the day she died. Shame on you and dont judge people before knowing the facts.

    http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2011/jul/26/amy-winehouse-death-badly-reported

    • Shame on you patek007 The autopsy said it iwas inconclusive. So no one knows for sure. She purchased ketamine and cocaine and other drugs.She also had an eating disorder and a breathing disorder If someone takes drugs the day before or even several days before and it is in the persons system, it can harm the person.
      Amy was self destructive. BTW that is what I do analyze and judge based on my observations.

      • How do you know she purchased any drugs? Where did you get this information from? Tabloids? Bravo Dr. Glass! Wait for toxicology tests with your comments. It takes two to four weeks. I wish you a litlle bit more patience

  16. Gee Whiz,I adored Amy but the truth is we all judge by what we are shown…..Come on now,I bet it was your very 1st thought too??
    Even Amy didn’t hide that but I know she didn’t want to be an addict,what little girl wants to grow up to be an addict? Truth is.she was! I still feel bad for her though.she no doubt had many things going on inside her that she wasn’t comfortable with,that’s all! I think she self medicated just like me and others have done,6 yrs sober by the way! Wish Amy could have been so lucky! Beautiful woman with so much to offer!

  17. I’LL SAY IT AGAIN Pate,
    Gee Whiz,I adored Amy but the truth is we all judge by what we are shown…..Come on now,I bet it was your very 1st thought too??
    Even Amy didn’t hide that but I know she didn’t want to be an addict,what little girl wants to grow up to be an addict? Truth is.she was! I still feel bad for her though.she no doubt had many things going on inside her that she wasn’t comfortable with,that’s all! I think she self medicated just like me and others have done,6 yrs sober by the way! Wish Amy could have been so lucky! Beautiful woman with so much to offer!

  18. Pate,btw how do you know she didn’t? Get that info from Tabloids? Case solved,move along shall we? Not being mean but dang you get more flies with honey than with vinegar!

  19. Rest in Peace Amy,God Bless! Sad Video!

  20. Actually,I have to say the video I just posted is like watching my birth Mum,Thats exactly how I saw her everytime I saw her in my life,Unfortunatley it caught up with her too before she ever saw a sober day!

  21. “Some Unholy War”

    If my man was fighting
    Some unholy war
    I would be behind him
    Straight shook up beside him
    With strength he didn’t know
    It’s you I’m fighting for
    He can’t lose with me in tow
    I refuse to let him go
    At his side and drunk on pride
    We wait for the blow

    We put it in writing
    But who you writing for
    Just us on kitchen floor
    Justice done,
    Reciting my stomach standing still
    Like you’re reading my will
    He still stands in spite of what his scars say
    I’ll battle till this bitter finale
    Just me, my dignity and this guitar case

    Yes my man is fighting some unholy war
    And I will stand beside you
    Who you fighting for
    B – I would have died too
    I’d of liked to
    If my man was fighting
    Some unholy war
    If my man was fighting

  22. Same songs but look at the differences in her,wow

  23. This is a close run for my favorite of Amy’s Videos!

    Sad!


  24. Her 1st Debut in U.S!

    They tried to make me go to rehab but I said ‘no, no, no’
    Yes I’ve been black but when I come back you’ll know know know
    I ain’t got the time and if my daddy thinks I’m fine
    He’s tried to make me go to rehab but I won’t go go go

    I’d rather be at home with ray
    I ain’t got seventy days
    Cause there’s nothing
    There’s nothing you can teach me
    That I can’t learn from Mr Hathaway

    I didn’t get a lot in class
    But I know it don’t come in a shot glass

    They tried to make me go to rehab but I said ‘no, no, no’
    Yes I’ve been black but when I come back you’ll know know know
    I ain’t got the time and if my daddy thinks I’m fine
    He’s tried to make me go to rehab but I won’t go go go

    The man said ‘why do you think you here’
    I said ‘I got no idea
    I’m gonna, I’m gonna lose my baby
    so I always keep a bottle near’
    He said ‘I just think you’re depressed,
    this me, yeah baby, and the rest’

    They tried to make me go to rehab but I said ‘no, no, no’
    Yes I’ve been black but when I come back you’ll know know know

    I don’t ever wanna drink again
    I just ooh I just need a friend
    I’m not gonna spend ten weeks
    have everyone think I’m on the mend

    It’s not just my pride
    It’s just ’til these tears have dried

    They tried to make me go to rehab but I said ‘no, no, no’
    Yes I’ve been black but when I come back you’ll know know know
    I ain’t got the time and if my daddy thinks I’m fine
    He’s tried to make me go to rehab but I won’t go go go

    • Thank you for sharing this, It is sooooo sad. What a takent. Her parents tried so hard to help her to no avail. Seeing hiow devastated her father Mitating.ch looked in the funeral photos was devast.ing

      • I’ve never lost a child but my heart goes out to anyone who has,If they’re 50 yrs old and a bank robber,they’re still your most prescious possessions on Earth!
        Too sad the A’s never saw how precious they are when they decided to free Caylee’s killer and destroy the evidence!
        I can understand to a point,But I’m sorry…Kc’s neck would have been stretched around those bars until she admitted the truth,THEN AND ONLY THEN could I support her in any way!
        Now they have all these cruises and luxuries that even hero’s aren’t entitled too! Even weddings because their life was ruined by accusations but guess what? Nobody every believed it in the first place!
        Did you ever see a a guy who crawled into a burning building to save a child at the very last moment…(doubtful) did you ever hear more than 2-3 minutes of news footage about it? Next day no one knew his name!
        But just break into somebodys home and break your leg in the crime and you can sue them! WTH is wrong with that pic? JMHO

        Disgusting don’t even fit! We need a new word for this one!

  25. Yea,Truly Sad!

  26. I can’t count on both hands how many people I’ve lost to drugs in only a yr!
    Not to mention how many I “almost lost” or have lost in all the yrs before but some got a second chance and I Thank God,have had the chance to make amends the best I can and I’m stone cold sober,6 yrs…7 yrs come April!
    Nobody plans to be there,It get’s out of hand fast.suddenly these little pills your Dr.gives you makes you feel better about your life and before long they take your life if you let them!
    I will share a story because I want people to know the truth,I don’t butter it up for anybody,lying about it helps no one and if one person ever ran across a post from me,I’d hope they’d think well atleast she’s honest about it so if she did it,I can too! I won’t lie about it even to help myself,no matter what it costs me!
    But I remember a few yrs ago being at my brother n laws house when his daughter had decided after many failures that she wanted to try again,I know it’s frustrating but someone whose never been there doesn’t have a clue and shouldn’t pretend they do,It’s a matter of life and death the way I see it but he heard her say this and he yelled back at her saying, “Yea we’ve heard the north wind blow before shut the hell up”
    Knowing it is possible because at that time me of all people was 5 yrs sober so I asked him to come outside with me and I told him…..****** ,OMG you can’t do that…Please,she don’t like it either that she’s failed before and the guiltier a person feels the higher they want to be to cover the guilt” It’s how they basically live and he said I’m sick of it though.blah blah blah etc…….I said ok,let me ask you,how many times did I say I’d quit and didn’t? (plenty)
    Ok The last time I said it did you believe me? (NO) Ok,The last time I said it did I quit? (Yes) ok then……that one time just might be the one time she’ll actually do it and if you don’t listen or care then and she feels you just don’t care at all,she won’t try,my point is,No matter how many times someone says they’ll quit just think first and it’s hard but think of them first and don’t say things they will feel more guilt over” Just don’t say anything if all you can say is bad!

    I don’t care who tells me I’m wrong I still say I’m right,There’s only one way to know if someone is really off drugs!
    Never failed for me!
    If you ask someone when was the last time they used,If they are truly sober they’ll say exact Month,day,yr! No Ifs and’s or buts! If they say April….nope,April 28 nope,April 28,2005 YES! It’s better than a birthday,you’ll always remember it because you count from day one,that’s how big it is to you and you also have to “learn to live sober” IMO it’s more psychological!
    But don’t accuse unless you’re sure!

  27. Meant to add,Sorry…LoL
    But it was no one’s fault over Amy’s addiction,She wasn’t ready to even try but atleast she admitted it,her lyrics tell me so……

    I don’t ever wanna drink again
    I just ooh I just need a friend
    I’m not gonna spend ten weeks
    have everyone think I’m on the mend

    IMO(She didn’t want people to think she was getting help when she wasn’t,That’s pretty honest huh?

    I don’t even like saying this because it feel’s dirty to me but the life Amy lived,I’d almost bet she’d rather be dead than so addicted to drugs,Addiction isn’t how it was when you first started.It’s an Awful,awful life!
    At first you feel good and by the time you reach rock bottom it’s hard as Hell to stop and it controls everything about you and your family can’t even have a good day with you if you don’t have your fix! Selfish! I can’t believe I was ever so selfish but I was! jmo

  28. I’d never seen this one,Ironic!

    http://www.chacha.com/videos/music/amy-winehouse/youtube/TJAfLE39ZZ8

  29. Amy was a excellent talented musician as she called herself. Some people don’t understand why we take to drugs or just how hard they are to get off. And I don’t blame Amy for not taking bipolar medication that drs give u. Usually quietepin. It makes u feel like uve had a labotomy. Brain wash. The drs don’t care as long as ur quiet. Amy would not have lived on them as there would be no possible way to perform her music. Rip Amy Winehouse. U will be sadly missed xxx

    • I agree and I will say a drug habit is the hardest to break in my opinion,we all have habits wether it’s biting your nails, smoking,cussing but we do have the will to kick those easier but with a drug habit it really boils down to the fact that the drug controls you,you have no power over it because your body demands it and i am clean for 7 yrs now,going on 8 and today i can honestly say I will never have that problem again? Ever…and I thought I’d never be able to say that?
      I am one of the lucky ones and I Thank God that I had a grandson who made me realize that I wanted to get clean and be a Grandma to him but I’ll never underestimate how hard i worked for it because I did and i totally understand it’s not easy in the least bit and I’m no different than any other…but to look down on someone else or judge them for it is something I’ll never do,Nor will I sugar coat the truth for anyone? none of us ever wanted to be in that place and we felt/feel guilty enough and the last thing we need is judgement to add to the guilt but I like to tell people I am always here to speak about it….openly and truthfully and when and If they want to change it I will listen? but judge anyone else..NEVER!
      Nor Amy? A beautiful talented person who just never got the chance to experience life after addiction?

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